In Love.

I don't think I've ever been so broken yet so in love..

If someone had a second to ask how I'm really doing, this is how I'd respond,
I'm heartbroken. But, I'm also so, so in love with my God.
I feel like at any moment I could completely fall apart.
Yet, I know every broken piece of me would be caught.
I feel as though my heart is being torn apart.
Yet, I feel it also being healed.
I feel the overwhelming temptation to give up, to quit.
But along side it is my passion, desire and commitment to keep going.
And I will keep going, no matter how much it hurts.
And it does hurt.
This hurts like hell.
Its killing me.
But every time I die I am restored, renewed, recreated, and given new life.
Every time I die, I come back to life, and understand a new depth of Love.
And that's what all this is about, that's why I hold on, that's why I push forward - it's because I'm loved. I am beloved. I am in love.
I am living in Love, itself.

--Peace and Love.