LIVING LIFE

Looking over my life, I can't remember one instance where I truly believed that how I felt or what I thought was worth anything. Along with that, I can't remember a time in my life where I believed that I was worth anything. I don't ever remember feeling like I was valued or worth something.

That is sad.
But as people manipulated me, used me, hurt me, and left me, these thoughts and beliefs of thinking that I'm useless, I'm worthless, I'm a failure began to make sense to me in my mind. I started to believe these lies, I still believe these lies.

And so my whole life became a a vicious cycle of me trying to please people, trying to live up to the expectations of others, and trying to at least look like I have worth. Put on a front that I am valuable, even though inside I have never completely believed that. This brought nothing but bad relationships into my life that left me feeling all the more hurt and valueless. It brought expectations that I placed on myself that I could never even try to live up to. So I not only felt worthless, but I felt like a failure. I still feel worthless. I still feel like a failure.

But then something started happening - God stepped in, and He started showing me how He feels about me, and what He thinks about me.

I am undone when I think about all He's shown me that He believes about me..
He's opening my eyes to show me how I am loved, I do have value. I have incredible value. I do have worth. I'm not just worth something, to God, I'm worth everything.

How can I explain this?

God looks at me and He doesn't see a failure?
He sees me as something valuable?
He thinks I'm worth Him giving everything?
I can't make sense of that - my mind cannot comprehend it.
But my heart.. my heart is undone - it is beautifully broken at the thought of my God, my Father, my Lover, my King, my Friend, my Everything looking at me and seeing a treasure. Seeing His daughter, who He created so specifically for a specific purpose, and being pleased with her. Looking at me - nothing but a broken and shameful sinner - yet seeing my heart, and knowing that I have always been and will forever be His little girl. There's nothing I have done or will do that will change the fact that I am His.


I have value.
I have so much worth.
I am not a failure.

I'm a treasure.
I am loved.
I am a beautiful daughter of the Most High.
I'm a princess of the King.
I'm a warrior for my Lord.
I'm His little girl.
I'm His beloved.
I'm His..

And now I'm free to live this life He's created for me. Live out His purpose for my life. Live out His love for me and my love for Him.

There is no better life than this.

--Peace and Love.