Ramblings

The last several updates have just been random moments I felt like sharing. Here's where I'm at right now. (:


One of my prayers has been that God will take me deeper into His heart. I want to learn more about what His love really is. I want to live inside of His heart.

Well, He's been answering this prayer in the most radical of ways.

The past six months have felt like years just because so much happened and I learned a lot. I've been learning about what it really means to love people with a hardcore and unexplainable love. I've learned that love can cover any wrongs and forgive with an unconditional forgiveness. I've seen love heal any anger or bitterness in my heart. Love goes beyond simply letting people do whatever they want - it sees real Life, and longs to give it. Love knows when to let go - this is one of the hardest things to learn. It doesn't do any good holding onto something or someone when you or they are being hurt because of it. Sometimes you have to let things go in order to pursue Life. Sometimes you need to let people go so that both you and they can live freely. Jesus came to give life, and to give it abundantly (John 10.10), love seeks to live this very life.

My favorite lessons have been that of learning God's beauty and joy. This life I have is beautiful. Because of God's love for me, I have no fear. He has given me the strength through His joy to walk confidently and boldly in His truth - and this is what I plan on doing. He has also taught me the beauty of His voice as He whispers to me in my quiet times. I love hearing what God has to say, and learning more about His character.

I think the hardest thing I had to learn is how to really trust God with no doubts. Watching people walk away from Him is the hardest thing I've ever seen.. but I know that He is bigger and His love and stronger than mine could ever be. I know that He doesn't let go of anyone, and He doesn't stop chasing us. He will not give up, even when we need to. He has taught me through times like these that He is still good, no matter what people decide to do. I can rest in Him knowing that He sees the bigger picture and He has a plan greater than I could ever imagine. All I need to do is let go and trust.

No one is more important to me than God. I can't live this life unless He's leading it. There's nothing else I want more.


I was talking with a friend of mine the other day and we were talking about how life is just good. This is how I feel right now - I'm just enjoying this life, and I'm really loving it! There's so many things that can get you down, but there's also a lot of beautiful, exciting and great things to focus on! These are the things I'm pursuing. I'm doing what I love, running towards my dreams and letting the chips fall where they may. Bad things happen and I still feel the hurt, but overall I'm just happy. I finally feel like I can breathe again. I finally feel like I can take it easy and chill in God's love and the life He's given me. I stay out of the drama and focus on standing strong in integrity and truth. This one is huge - because no one can hold anything against me if I'm consistent in how I live. I'm learning how to build others up instead of tearing them down. Life is simply rocking right now.


I'm totally excited for all the new things I'll be learning as this year carries on. So far it's been crazy - but good. I'm feeling hopeful for all the lessons and experiences in store. I'm ready to move on and finally live this life in love.

--Peace and Love.