God is showing me more and more of what it takes to go deeper into His heart. It means letting go of a piece of myself that I've helplessly tried to cling onto since the first time I was truly, painfully rejected. It's the piece of me that I tied so closely to my dignity, pride, and even my sense of self. It's the piece that builds walls around my heart so that it never feels pain. It's the piece that gives me a sense of security and control.
It's all I have left.. and God is leading me to a place where I'll let it go and give it up to Him for good.
It will hurt, but my desire to go deeper is stronger than my fear of complete abandonment of myself. I want to go.
I'm running towards God's heart with everything I am, and anything in me that tries to stop that will have to be let go of.. and left behind.
"Daisy, let it go.."
I don't know what it will look like, although I have a few guesses. I know it will be unlike anything else I've ever seen. That it will shake and rock me at my very core. I know it will be terrifying. I know it will be beautiful.
Hold tightly onto me, Daddy, I could never do this without You.
Take me to that place..
--Peace and Love.
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