"You Still Hurt Me."

I've been screwed by people over and over again. I've been lied to. I've been rejected. I've been a doormat, a rag to simply be used and then thrown away. I've let people drag me down, I've let them take me to some pretty dark places. I've let people mess with me, I have. I knew I was their little rag doll, and still I let them toss me wherever they wished. I've been deeply hurt by others, and I've let them do it.

But you know what's beautiful about it all? It's that everybody hurts everyone at some point in their lives. Everyone knows how it feels to be screwed with, to be used and rejected. Everyone knows the feeling of being deeply hurt by someone they loved with everything they are. We all have this in common.

What's beautiful is that Jesus even felt and feels these same things, yet He still gave and still gives everything He is. Because Jesus endured all these and still loves us with a deep, unfathomable and unconditional love,  He made it possible for all of us to do the same. That's what is so beautiful. Because now we have a choice.. after being screwed with and hurt by others, we can either push on and show His crazy, hardcore, radical love, or we can become bitter and hateful of people altogether. Because honestly, people will always hurt you, even (and sometimes, unfortunately, especially) by those who claim to follow Jesus. Some people just won't change when it comes to that.. but I can.

"Just as I'm called, I will show love, no pain no words will ever stop my heart! There is a war, for those I love, I will be strong..."

For me, it kinda feels like a challenge.. will I love in the face of pain, or even evil? Will I really love my enemies? Those who purposely hurt me and others? This is where God's real and hardcore love is found. And I guess the answer is, I can't do it unless God's doing it through me. That's why I need Him.. that's why we all do.

--Peace and Love.